Archive for March, 2007

Meditation

March 27, 2007

Meditation is one of my favorite things.

Mother taught me to meditate when I was very young. I remember laying in my bed, finding a kind of floaty feeling and staying there. I’ve IM’d her to see what she can tell me.

Meditation can be ecstatic, blissful, joyous.

But we get the mistaken idea that it’s going to take us years of sitting in a cave. Not so.

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Meditation: The Art of Ecstacy was a book by Rajneesh/Osho. I loved that book. The meditation Osho describes is so joyful, so fluid, so connected. I recently learned that he was also a Sagittarian like myself. I read a few of his book, loved them, but never thought to find him or his classes.

I also remember a book called “Complete Meditation” by Steven Kravette. It seems to be out of print now. What I always liked about that book was the amazing number of meditation techniques described. It seemed like anything and everything could be a meditation. It has always helped me to know that.

Later, I studied Rudra meditation in Denton, Texas. It was the most formal meditation I ever did. Mostly, I liked the people in the ashram – enough to move in for a few years, and marry one of the teachers.

Breathwork (aka Rebirthing or Vivation or Conscious Connected Breathing) is certainly a meditation of a sort, very active, like much of what Osho/Rajneesh recommended.

My NLP teacher led us through many guided mediations or visualizations in the years I was training in Neurolinguistic Programming. And in those days I bought dozens of Barry Konicov’s Potentials Unlimited self-hypnosis tapes, which again, are a type of meditation.

I was never drawn to TM or Transcendental Meditation. I’m not sure why. I don’t think I was close to anyone who did it and what I had was working just fine.

But now, 3 decades after I first started meditatin, I’ve run across the fastest, deepest meditation so far.

It’s called IAM or Instant Advanced Meditation, created by Steven Sashen.

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I love this stuff.

Learning it the first time took maybe 20 minutes for each one, but now I can do one of these IAM meditations for less than 5 minutes and be totally blissed. It’s kinda wild.

I think it would be cool if everyone tried them.

There are 2 free samples up. I’d love to know what you think.

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Obviously, I’ve done a *lot* of meditations.

These are most definitely something diffferent.

And they’re about as simple as you can get.

I’d especially love to hear from people who have been meditating forever and people who have never meditated. So far, those extremes have made no difference. Anyone can do these.

Please comment below!

Love,
Stacy

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Brunch is Good – Life is Good

March 20, 2007

I had the most amazing weekend.

Friday night, Russ, a man I’ve just met, invited me to his place to see how we are as lovers. We’re good, but we are both the type of person who want a full 100% loving monogamous relationship to really let go and be present.

He really brought that home to me by noticing it in himself.

Saturday I spent unpacking some more, then I went to a friend’s home to watch a movie. “Light romantic comedy” they told me. So I cried my eyes out through the whole thing.

Why?

My date Friday night is the closest I’ve ever been to a man I would marry, and still isn’t it. It was a big huge opening and growing experience for me.

It was a relief when the Sunday Brunch table was full of people I feel I can be myself with, friends, teachers, and ex-lovers.

I am very close with lovers and ex-lovers who are now friends. That added to the comfort in the room for me. Cricket and Kerry did show up, which I had hoped they would. Cricket had been staying away because I was not yet ready to be comfortable around Kerry. I spent a fair amount of time chatting with her.

So, Kathryn was at brunch. I met her about 3 weeks ago. Alec brought her with him. He introduced us, saying, “You two have to talk. You have a lot in common.”  I intuitively knew he meant she had some interest in sexual healing work by the way he said it. 

We had dinner together the next night and she shared her vision of what we are currently calling a spiritual center. I saw Kathryn do a dance perfomance a couple of weeks ago that was one of the most amazing I’ve ever seen, and very sensual.

I asked what she was doing after brunch, and we went shopping for a location for our center and talked about a sexual healing conference I may be going to with her. She was in her doubts, and asked me things like, “Do I have to do this?” I kept reassuring her that no, she does not have to do anything. She can stop now. Stop in the middle. Stop whenever she likes. It seems to be one of my functions in the world to assure people they have a choice. We do not intend this spiritual center to be anything sexual. We’re not talking about doing dakini work or surrogacy work. We aren’t quite sure how to set it up, but there is something there and we are moving towards it to see what it will be.

I warned her that next time it could be me asking, “Do I have to do this?”

We have both abandoned this work and both feel drawn back into it. Opportunities keep flying in the window after we bar the door. 

Then I went to Steven’s for the meditation class and recording session. It was a small, but deep group. I basically spent the afternoon high as a kite and let myself snuggle with a friend on the couch while we meditated. We went to dinner. He even gave me his hat! It was fun and the affection was just what the doctor ordered to complete my weekend.

I went home and slept like a baby.

Monday night I got clear with Russ that neither of us wants sex in anything but a 100% committed long term relationship. He figured it out as being true for him, then ever so politely pointed out serious contradictions in me and my behavior that might indicate that I’m like that, too.

I know that. I’ve been through this before. I just despair of finding a true fit. And yet I know that it’s possible. There is more self-exploration and relaxing into it to do.

Some Work of Byron Katie, etc.

I also called my Qi Gong teacher. Class is tomorrow at 6. It is traditional to begin with 100 days of sexual abstinence. Last time I made it 40 days and experienced some awesome and very specific sexual healing. We’ll see how it goes.

Love,
Stacy

Very Moving News

March 9, 2007

“Ladles & Jellyspoons,

I come before you to stand behind you to tell you something you already know. Next Tuesday, which is Good Friday, there will be a mother’s meeting for fathers only. Admission is free. Pay at the door. Grab a seat and sit on the floor.”

That’s all I can remember of a little ditty on a 45 record my mother had when I was a a child. I was reminded of it when I read Spider Robinson’s speech to a fan convention as printed in Time Travelers Strictly Cash . His is funnier, but it’s at home.

Home.

Well, that’s what I’m writing about, isn’t it?

After nearly a year (minus a month in the green green grass of Ireland, perhaps an ancestral home and 2 weeks housesitting on a mountain) in the home of the lovely Audrey, who is so much more to me than just a friend, I am moving to the home of the equally lovely Elizabeth, of whom I could say much the same. I am a lucky girl!

Audrey’s home is sold and Elizabeth needs a roommate, preferably someone she knows. Me, too!  So much nicer to live with a known friend. I’ll admit there is some sadness at leaving Audrey’s, we had started to consider a more permanent arrangement when the offer came in, but she really does need to let go of this house, as she now lives and thrives in scenic Santa Fe.

If I sound a little too animated about it, it may be because this will be my 7th home in 2 years. I admit that I am a flexible, adaptable person. Still, I’m ready to settle in somewhere, and I have high hopes for my new home with Elizabeth.

Cell phone is the same.

Let me know if you have an hour or two to hoist a couple of boxes into a car or truck and come see where I’m going. I have 2 men with strong arms (Thank you T & P!) helping with the couches. I’m not moving the things out of storage just yet. I’m going to unpack the basics first.

Keep those cards & letters coming!

Blessings and love, y’all, (always a Texan deep in my heart)

Stacy

Chocolate, the Complete Food

March 5, 2007

Let’s talk about chocolate.

Matthew Middendorf, folk musician extraordinaire, has just released his CD, “Chocolate, the Complete Food,” and that is what prompted this blog.

I’ve always liked chocolate, but I have never been one to crave it or sing its praises the way some of my friends do. As a child, when my grandmother, Mema, took me to the candy counter at the department store, I always chose either white chocolate or tingalings, a minty white chocolate covered candy. I almost never went for actual chocolate.

Somewhere around 2001 this all changed some.

By then, I had sampled enough different chocolates to know that I do really love a dark chocolate. Right now, my favorite is 65% Chocolove, made in Boulder, Colorado, by a man from Belgium and distributed at health food stores. (See what I mean? Betcha didn’t know all of that!)  It’s www.chocolove.com since I know you’re wanting some.

So, I was in this group of friends back then. We were kind of a support group. We called ourselves the God Group. What drew us together was a common love of spiritual discussions. No, not exactly the Christian kind, something very eclectic. We met on Sunday evenings and hung out together talking about what was going on in our lives. Come to think of it, it was mostly stories. Hmm.

Anyways, so I can pretty much tell you everyone’s favorite chocolate and how they take their water. It was just one of those things we noticed. Yes, some of them liked a variety, and some of them would take whatever was handed to them in order not to cause a fuss, but most of us had some pretty well-defined preferences about both chocolate and water (and pretty much everything else).

Think of Sally in the film, When Harry Met Sally. There’s a scene where she’s pretty specific about her food order. We were a room full of people just like that. Fortunately, we met in homes and brought potluck rather than badger waitpersons with our detailed requests.

Chocolate obviously comes in many flavors and forms. You may wonder how there could be so many ways to take water. Okay. I won’t try to list everyone, but here is a partial list as an example:

Becky takes hers hot in a mug and only uses it to warm her fingers. 

Loretta takes hers hot in a mug with lemon and actually drinks it.

Chris takes hers with ice and lemon.

Jared takes his however they bring it to him.

Mindy takes hers no ice, with lemon.

Me, make mine no ice.

See?

But I digress. We were discussing chocolate.

Cricket, lately, has been eating Lindt 77% Dark.

Chris likes Chocolove 65% Dark with Raspberries, and most any kind with fruit.

Loretta goes through phases, always dark. I don’t know what she’s into right now.

Becky goes for dark, doesn’t matter too much what else is there, as long as it’s dark.

Jared doesn’t eat much chocolate, but I’ve seen him take what was offered when it’s there.

Me, like I said, I really like white chocolate, and now dark.

I once had these people over for a party at my place. I bought a natural bridge mix with white and dark chocolate coated nuts, raisins, etc. I set out a bunch in a bowl and then I was busy with my company for a while. When I came back to the living room to check on things, I went to grab some of the white chocolate ones and found only dark!

I hope I wasn’t rude to my company, but I was so surprised, I just said, “What happened to all the white chocolate?” Sheryl piped up and said, “Oh, I ate all those. I love white chocolate.” I looked at her in amazement. No one else of my acquaintance likes white chocolate like I do. It happens that we are both Priest Scholars. Not enough data for a conclusion, but I’m curious whether there are others.

So, last night, when I heard that I needed to move because the home I’m living in is likely to sell and close in less than 2 weeks, what did I do?

I went for chocolate mousse tart in a dark chocolate lined tart shell with pecans and coffee, light and sweet.

Apparently, I have joined the ranks of people for whom chocolate is a comfort food.

Love,

Stacy